runnnn its its........... ITS LOVE

Im watchin tough love and it makes me think about my relationshit i mean relationship..lol status to briefly break it down and make a long storey short im single to mingle. I had a good perfect with his flaws man but he was killed( later for that storey) and then i had a perfect ass hole man with a dr jeckle and mr hyde as relationship(later for that storey to). I ended up with two different situations that both left me with a broken heart and side effects. I have trust issues fears i over think certain things and i miss my routine im so use to being someones "wifey" that i dont think i remember how to be single and im so picky that i wont just be in a relationship with someone just to be in one...unlike other people i know.... and i love so hard and so right that i dont want to just give it to anyone. So i asked myself right now... What are my options lookin like right now and what do i want? I have a couple of friends each one on different levels. From just being a text buddy down up to someone i just started gettin intimate with. Im only having sex with one person but i do kick it with others. Right now im not gettin everything i need from one person so im kind of gettin alittle of what i need from here and there. I refuse to be like some of the females in my circle and just today my girl text me from her job she was having lunch with this guy she just adores but for what ever reason he done threw her in the friend bucket and she is in it with abroken bottle tryin to dig out of it for dear life screaming nnnnnooooo i wanted to be your girlllllllllll!!!!!! but any way she said that he was telling her about how him and his new girl were just browsing and they looked at engagement rings(they only being dating for like two months and my girl got like a year of i guess friendship in....how the hell she gonna let someone fly kick her out of the next girl friend line when the bitch came in the pic after her...i guess it just be like that sometime) i dont know if she took that harder the fact that he told her they recently just had sex or the day that he cut her a key to his appartment its like she been lustin on havin this jacket that was her size her color the perfect fit and as soon as she puts it down to look for her credit card someone else grabs it rushes to the regester pays cash and darts out the door and i tried to tell her in not so many words just let it go and move on not just because of that because of alot of things she knew him befor her and they hung out and stuff and she told me a couple things he did that kind of screamed out i like u as a friend but he did use to flirt with her sexually and i think that kind of went to her head so know she feels like she lost something that really wasnt hers to loose any way.